THE FEELING

This is another poem that I wrote before, I think I was 2nd year college in PLM... Nothing to do...

This was originally written July 26, 2002...

Please forgive the wrong grammars or spellings... I've some fixed some of the lines so that it wouldn't sound so awfull (nakakahiya kasi)...

Lights keep rushin' back in my head

Sometimes I feel I'm dead

I lie down silently on my bed

Until theirs nothing to be said

Could you imagine the pain I feel

It's like wanting to kill

Would I just be the one to kneel

Or be having a feel of thrill

Should I give-up and fade away

Wondering even if there would be a way

As the wind of breeze will sway

To the sunset of the bay

I would dream being on an island

and sing like I'm on a band

Waiting till I can't no longer stand

And say my last Goodbye!!!

TANG INA NYONG MGA MANDURUKOT

Kakauwi ko lang ng bahay galing Makati... Sumakay ako ng bus from Makati papuntang Karuhatan, nakatulog ako sa biyahe dahil inaantok na talaga ako... Paggising ko at ng bumaba ako ng bus napansin ko ang gaang ng bulsa ko sa kaliwa, yun naman pala na-SLICE ang bulsa ako nakuha ang COMPANY CELLPHONE ko... TANG INA!!!!

Pangalawang beses ko ng mawalan cellphone sa bus... Yung una pinost ko rin sa blog na to... Nakuha naman yun biyaheng Makati papuntang Buendia LRT... Nadukot sa cellphone case ko sa belt...

Nakakahiya na nga yung unang nangyari sakin ng ireport ko sa office namin, lalo na to na naulit nanaman sakin... Sana naman hindi nila ako pag-isipan ng masama...

Ano na ba talaga ang nangyayari sa Pinas ngayon??!!! Parang wala na talaga akong tiwalang sumakay ng pampasaherong sasakyan... Ang mga tao dito sa Pinas masyado na nga bang desperado o sadyang mga halang lang ang kaluluwa ng mga taong yun...

Pakiramdam ko ngayon parang ang malas ko ata ngayong taong ito dahil mangyari ba naman sakin yun ng dalawang beses... Hindi ko alam kung maiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil nakatulog ako sa biyahe at hindi ko sinunod ang alok nila LV na magpaumaga na lang sa kanila o sa mga PUTANG INANG MANDURUKOT na yun...

Eto nga pala ang ginawa ng mga yun sa pantalon ko... 3 nga lang maong pants ko sinira pa nila yung isa... Kaasar talaga!!!

Karera ng buhay

Alam nating lahat na napaka hirap ng buhay dito ngayon sa Pinas... Lalo na sa panahong ito kung saan ang lahat ng bilihin ay nagtaas na, ang presyo ng Gasolina, Bigas at Pamasahe...

Bawat Pilipino ay hirap na hirap na, kasama pa sa kahirapan na nararanasan nating lahat ngayon ay ang kaguluhan sa ating Gobyerno... Kabikabila ang mga eskandalo sa ating Gobyerno... Habang ang bawat mamayan ng ating bansa ay hirap kung pano nila bubuhayin at itatawid ang sarili nila sa pangaraw-araw na pamumuhay nila...

Sa bawat tahanan ngayon kinakailangan ng magtrabaho ang Nanay at Tatay para lang maitawid and pamilya nila... Minsan pa nga ay pati ang mga anak ay humihinto pa sa pag-aaral para lang tumulong sa paghahanap buhay... Ang karamihan pa ngayon ay nangingibangbansa na...

Kaya gumawa ako ng maliit na Survey sa aking blog upang makuha ang opinion ng mga mangilan-ngilang mga tao na bumibisita aking blog...

Which would you rather choose?

• To work here in the Philippines


• Work abroad


• Have your own business

Ang resulta.... Merong 9 na taong sumagot sa katanungan...

1. To work here in the Philippines - 2 votes = 22%


2. Work abroad - 5 votes = 55%


3. Have your own business - 2 votes = 22%
   

Eto ang aking mga sariling saloobin sa mga maaring kadahilanan kung bakit eto ang naging resulta ng botohan...

Yung sumagot sa "To work here in the Philippines"... Maaring ang dalawang taong ito ay kasalukuyang may magandang trabaho kung kayat masaya silang magtrabaho sa Pinas... Maari din na ayaw nilang umalis ng Pinas dahil may mga tao sila dito na maiiwan nila na ayaw nilang malayo sa kanila at baka malungkot lamang sila kapag nangibang-bansa sila...

Sa sumagot sa "Work abroad"... Eto yung mga maaring mga tao na hindi na masaya sa trabaho nila dito sa Pinas, naliliitan sa sahod na kanilang nakukuha at tanging pangingibangbansa ang kasagutan sa kanilang pangangailangan... Maaring pagod na rin sila sa mga nangyayari dito sa Pinas at sa ibang lugar na lang sila magtatrabaho... Pwede rin dahil, gusto nilang makaipon agad dahil may mga pinaplano sila para sa hinaharap...

Ang mga matatapang na sumagot ng "Have your own business"... Eto yung mga nilalang na matatapang ang kalooban at handang sumabak sa mundo ng mga negosyante... Maaring eto lang ang tanging dahilan para talagang umasenso sila sa madaling paraan... Gusto nilang kumita ng malaki na hindi na kailangang umalis ng bansa at hindi sila magpapaalipin sa mga banyaga at gusto nilang gawin ang gusto nila... Naniniwala sila ang tagumpay ay nasa pagtitiyaga at nasa tamang oportunidad sa buhay...

Eto ay ilan lamang sa aking mga opinyon kung anu ang maaring naging dahilan ng mga sumagot...

Bawat sa atin ay may kanya-kanyang mga dahilan kung anu man ang landas ang ating pipiliin upang tayo ay umasenso sa buhay at makuha natin ang ating mga inaasam sa buhay... Eto man ay Magtrabaho dito sa Pinas, sa ibang Bansa o magkaron ng sariling Negosyo... Kung anu man ang piliin mo, dito ka masaya at dito magaan ang loob mo... Hindi lahat tayo, makakaalis ng bansa para magtrabaho at hindi lahat tayo ay magiging negosyante... Bawat isa sa atin ay may kanya-kanyang gagampanan sa buhay...

Kung wala ng magsasaka; wala na tayong kakainin, kung wala ng karpentero; wala ng gagawa ng mga bahay, kung wala ng guro; mangmang na tayong lahat...

Kailangan lamang ng bawat isa sa atin ay pagbutihin ang ating mga piniling Karera sa Buhay... Maging masaya sa ating ginagawa at pagyamanin ang mga nalalaman...

What's My Age Again

Everyday, we go about on our regular routines, whether going to school, going to work or just being a plain easy goer... Some of us, like to go out and have fun in clubs, dancing around and getting drunk... Some would go shopping and keep on spending his/her money and most of the times it's not their money that they are spending...

This are just some of the things that other people do on a regular basis, too busy on everything and anything that they do... But are these the important ones???

Have we ever stopped and think of our future?? What is the next thing that will happen to college graduates after school; will they have any work, will get that dream job of theirs, will they pass the board or bar exams or will they even finish college...

Have we all noticed how time fly's... How each moment passes us by without us noticing it... How we are being left alone by our friends, going to abroad or starting their own family... And even some of them died of early age...

Have we even thought of what will happen to us a day after, a week after, a month after or even a year or even decades... Maybe it's to think of our future, of our plans, of our dreams and goals...

Maybe it's time to think of "What's My Age Again??"... Because we are not getting any younger anymore...

Before I used to think that I would not grow old... That I would reach that certain stage of my life were in I would not have to make those big decisions in life... That I would not have to live by my self, start my own family... That I would have to fend for myself... This things are past, we are now at the present and we must think of the future...

I have started asking this question to myself everytime since I stepped in college... I was always hopefull of my future that I could achieve my dreams and goals in life... But as time fly's by, decision makings are getting harder and harder each and every time...

After graduating I keep on saying to myself, "you are no longer young anymore"... I must make do what is left in my time... That I have so little time to plan for my future... To have a steady relationship with my GIRL... To have a good job, later on have my own business and then start my own family...

I have attended numerous weddings before, weddings of my friends and relatives... I always wanted to have that kind of feeling, finally ending with the one that you truly loved... I also have attended numerous Christening and being a god father to those childrens...

And now, for the first time in my life I have attended a wedding were in I am one of the Groomsmen... Well, with no special participation... But the sad part is that I was late and failed to march in the isle... Sorry for my partner... Hehehehe... Being inside the church realizing my part in the wedding of my former college blockmate... It flashes back to me once again, "I am no longer a kid","I am now doing big parts in ceremonies"...

Then I also remembered that I am now a Grandfather (LOLO), to my nephews son... Damn, I really am getting older...

This are the things that I am now considering and making me think twice of the things of what I should be doing now and what I should do tomorrow...

The JOKER Movie

I know that a lot of bloggers and enthusiast will write about how great "The Dark Knight" movie is and how Christian Bale has portrayed Batman so well... Everyone would also say that this is the best Batman Movie that came out so far and I totally agree with that...

With what I am about to say may angry all the Batman Fans out there... But I believe that THE JOKER played by Heath Ledger has outshined Batman in this movie...

Yes, Christian Bale has also portrayed Batman very well especially in this new movie... He has given justice to the role... But I think his image here i quite different from what Batman should have been in the comics... The type of person who likes being alone and keeps everything to himself... I don't know but this is how I saw it...

I think "Two Face" was a great additional character to the film, but I think it did not really shown of what his true character is in the movie... He played a little part in the end only...

Now for me, the high light of the movie is really THE JOKER....

It seems that THE JOKER has really over shadowed BATMAN in this movie... It's how Heath Ledger has really given life to JOKER that you almost can't tell if it's just acting or a really person... It was really quite disturbing how he does everything in the movie... The voice and laugh was really great (I hope it's not just any dubbing or effect) because it really has given life to JOKER... THE JOKER here showed Mannerism that is not in the real character of the real JOKER in the comics... But I must admit it has added more creappiness in his character...

I also think Heath Ledger is the best JOKER character compared to the veteran actor Jack Nicholson... It's as if he has become the character that he is portraying, being the JOKER himself inside...

More importantly, we must not forget to give praise to the person who wrote the story for this film... All hands down (samba) to Writer: David Goyer, for coming up with a great story for The Dark Knight... He scences keeps me guessing on what will happen next and what will Joker do next... The Joker really had taken control of all the situations in the movie... How he plotted against everyone, The Mob, The Police, Batman and everyone else... Putting up a show for everyone, being the new breed of Gangsters in town... Fueled, not by money and greed but the sheer passion for crime, havoc and chaos... He keeps on manipulating people, bring-out the inner demons that everyone has in themselves... He even turned a great man "Harvey Dent" in a villain which is "Two Face"...

Their is one line of JOKER that keeps on lingering in my head "You Complete Me"... At first, it made me laugh because it's a very corny line to say in a very good movie but come to think of it, that line has a deep meaning into it... "You Complete Me", may sound mushy but the true meaning is that, NO HERO can be really called A HERO without having an ARCHENEMY... A Villain that almost equals the Hero... Because without an Archenemy he is not a Hero, he is just a normal crime fighter... Just like SUPERMAN and LEX LUTHOR, CAPT. AMERICA and RED SKULL... Before anyone can really be called a Hero is when he has proven himself by defeating his greatest enemy that is were he will really be known...

I would also like to add something on my blog... Last July 17, Thursday, I was suprissed that our company was given a Movie Pass by one our partners "ACER". It was chance to watch the Movie early on and the best thing is for FREE... Our company was given 10 tickets of this, but ofcourse it was given to our Marketing Manager. She was the one who distributed it to the people inside the office who wanted to watch the movie... I also got a ticket, but unfortunately I had alot of work to be done on that day, 4 meeting with a client and I even have to got to Antipolo to deliver a service unit for my bosses client... I just told our Marketing Manager that I could not watch the movie since I will be out the whole day... And the sadest part it that the ticket is only applicable on that day only...

After my 3rd client visit, I called the client from Antipolo is it's ok with them for us to make the delivery on the following day, and they agreed... So I returned to the office earlier that expected... My ticket was already given out to someone else already, I wanted to get it back but I opted not to... My reason is plain and simple, most of my officemates will be watching and we aren't really that close so I think I won't enjoy watching the movie... I would rather spend and buy my own ticket and watch it with my friends...

Past & Future Pains

Slowly closing my eyes to reality

As I soon lay myself into darkness

Not knowing of what is to come

Or what will become of me

Is there yet a reason for this

Answers are yet to be found

Hidden deep inside of consciousness

Sufferring from past wounds

That was delt by my own doing

Cannot foretell of my future

And oy my own world

Still felt by the anguish of my foes

And the wounds taht can't be healed

Nor time and space can tell

How this has affected me

My mind and my heart

Still and forever by in pain.

Pagpasensyahan nyo na po itong tula na to kung parang walang katuturan at kung magulo siya. Isinulat ko lang to nung nasa college pa ko. Ganito ako minsan kapag walang magawa dati nagsusulat lang ng kung anu-ano.

Lumang Tula na nga pala yan, kung mukha man siyang tula. Hehehe.

P.S: Hinay-hinay lang po sa panglalait... Hehehe...

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